As this is Father's Day, I am suddenly aware of the imminent 5th year anniversary of my Dad's death. 5 years. That used to be such a long time. Growing up, a year would feel like 365 long spins around the sun - where everyday would feel like a lifetime. Now, one could take a deep breathe and a year has passed. So it's been 5 years since I wished Dad farewell. I think he would be proud of many of the steps I have taken. I wish we got to share more of out lives together. But that was not meant to be. Life is not as clearly defined as that and I still have much to learn. I miss him though.

At the moment, I feel like I am missing the men in my life. After Dad died, all the older and wiser men disappeared. All Dad's friends went on their own way and my brother lives far away. I wish the society of elders had not become obsolete. Like I said I have much to learn and who better to learn from.